Dear Alex,
Today you seem sad. We went to get cloth to make you a yoga bag and while you were as gracious and polite and grateful as ever, you seemed a bit different tonight. I wonder if you are missing your friends and family in Tucson. I wonder if things are going well for you at school. My mind races and I think of a million different things I could try to say or do to make your move here better. I always want to buy you things and make you feel comfortable here but I know that things don't fix everything.
I was thinking tonight about my own teenage years and all the time I spent away from my parents. I was so lucky to have a close adult friend that wasn't a parent who stepped in and was just a friend to me. I wish I knew what to do to be that for you. I wonder if you will be upset if I ask you about Jon or school or friends.
I want to try to be there for you but I'm afraid of doing the wrong thing. I'm afraid giving the impression that I'm trying to replace your mom. I know she's your mom and I never want to take her place. But maybe I can be your friend. I'm looking for the words to say and the things to do that will let you see that I care about you. I'm not good at this and I'm pretty scared. I'm scared of giving you a reason to hate me.
But as of today, I've decided to be more brave. I will try to hug you more often. I will ask more questions and take more interest in your life at school and with friends and in Tucson. I will try to avoid talking negatively about anything - I don't want to dump anything on you, you are not my place to vent. I will seek out the things you do that I admire and I will work on telling you.
You are a great girl, Alex and I do have a lot of admiration for you. I'm sorry this time in life is hard. I hope it gets easier and I hope that even if it is hard now, you might someday look back on it with contentment.
Love you,
Heather
Alex's Moments
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Glasses
Alex started complaining a bit ago that she can't seem to focus. So finally yesterday I took her in with Zach to get her eyes checked. Turns out, her eyes are really bad and she does need glasses. We looked around and picked out a good pair and ordered them. It's really cute because as we were picking them out, she even asked Zach his opinion on which ones to get. She picked out a really cute pair and we're set to get them in two weeks.
For Halloween, Alex was mother nature. She let me make her a tutu. It was green and stuffed with flowers and leaves. It was really cool - it's the first time I made a tutu and I'm so lucky she let me make it.
Alex really is such a sweet and polite girl. I think she still struggles with being here and missing her sister and friends. I try to give her as much as I can to make up for it. I worry about her not being happy here but I hope she's as happy as she can be. I'm lucky to have her here. She's also a great big sister for Zach and he just adores her.
For Halloween, Alex was mother nature. She let me make her a tutu. It was green and stuffed with flowers and leaves. It was really cool - it's the first time I made a tutu and I'm so lucky she let me make it.
Alex really is such a sweet and polite girl. I think she still struggles with being here and missing her sister and friends. I try to give her as much as I can to make up for it. I worry about her not being happy here but I hope she's as happy as she can be. I'm lucky to have her here. She's also a great big sister for Zach and he just adores her.
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